UGH. I can’t stop thinking about this guy I’m totally crushing on right now! He’s such a good guy! I don’t care about his looks even though a lot of girls totally think he’s hot (well, it’s true that he is). He’s much older than me though. Is 7 years apart much older anyway!? He’s like my older bro… BUT I’M CRUSHING ON HIM! Damnit.
I dreamt he was my boyfriend and we were shy looking at each other and holding hands UGH. LOL It’s so cute, like first love. Or puppy love? It seemed like something out of a shoujo manga! I was dreaming about it instead of reading it though!
He’s so tall though! I want him to carry me like I’m a baby. I WANT HIM TO BABY ME! LOL
I’m really NOT a tall person. Compared to all of my friends, I’m the smallest. And compared to all of my real brother’s friends, the guy I like is the tallest! Haha.
Like in this picture, the two of us when we first met were sort of turned away while talking to each other LOL but I was happy.
I was hanging out with my brothers friends and the only person out of all his friends who talked to me is him. He’s so nice! He’s so cute!
It was so adorable when he bent down to ask if I was okay.
Are you okay?
Yeah… I’m fine.
Are you sure!?
Yeah…!!
You sure?
I’m sooooooooooo crushin on you!! (that’s not what I said irl)
He said he’s probably gonna go to Anime Expo. I really want to see him there, because I’M GOING TOO DAMNIT!! We were in the same car the day I first NOTICED that he’s friggin cute (he saw me for the first time 2 years ago), and he was even talking about going too. And he’s so cute how enthusiastic he is about it all like, “it’s so cool to see the stuff there! I can’t wait to go!”
PLEASE GO. And please MAY I ALSO GO. To see him. ONLY. I don’t even care about buying anything at Anime Expo. I mean, it’s nice looking at everything but I wanna be with him instead of paying attention to anything else around me!
This is bad. What if he has a girlfriend!? I always end up liking guys with girlfriends and it TOTALLY SUCKS! Then the guys who are totally not my type are the ones who are like…
I LIEK, 2TLY HAVE A THING FOR YOU PLS GO OUT WITH ME LIEK NAO.
Um, no thanks. SEE YAH, BITCH.
……….
No, I didn’t say that. That would be mean. LOL but when I was in junior high, some guy send me a note saying, “I like you, can you go out with me?” I made a really mean facial expression, saying “EW, GROSS, GO AWAY NAO.”
Also, at one point during my crush on “him” ……..
I SUDDENLY am nottt attracted to him anymore
…Are you really? THAT ISN’T A LIE!?
*dreams of being his girlfriend*
OH FACK I THINK I STILL LIKE HIM!
LOL I thought of him for a few days still wondering if me liking him was just… my imagination. I don’t think it was! But yeah, on May 13, I SUDDENLY had a really big crush on him that I couldn’t sleep all night. All I was doing was sighing a lot and listening to cute romantic songs from anime while thinking of him. From that point on, I was even watching romance anime like Say I love you, My little monster, Hiyokoi, and even some romance drama like Switch girl, and Boys over flowers.
GAH FRIGGIN…. Let me see you again. NAO. He’s my brother’s friend. Is it a bad thing to like him? To even dream of being in a relationship with my brother’s friend seems kind of wrong, doesn’t it!? It’s almost like forbidden love… OH WELL! Forbidden love is a total turn on damnit!
Okay. I’ll stop. FOR NOW.
Good day? 